Meh..

Would say that I am kinda bored... but let's go with contemplating my options.

I already knew sitting at a desk all day was not for me (but I have been doing so for over 2 years.) I want to do more, make a difference and just hate not being productive. My work ethic is too damn strong.

I will admit I kinda do miss PetSmart because at least I got a nice workout, walked around and DID something. Actually, I kicked ass working at that place. I knew what had to be done and I did it.

I would love to be an Animal Cruelty Investigator but I know how sensitive I am. But making such a big difference to the lives of the animals would be such an accomplishment. I would def. have to numb myself of any situation I would be in, but I would def. be up for the challenge. There is no excuse to abuse animals, if you can't no afford to take care of them, don't have the time, or just don't feel like it... then DON'T DO IT. You're not doing the animal a favor by chaining it up outside in the sun with little water and no food or shelter. If you wouldnt wanna be treated like this, then don't do it to another living thing. I'm also talking about any animal you take into your home and in your care.

There goes my rant of the day.

Random Thoughts On My Mind

Have you ever wondered why it's easier for people to open up to strangers than to the people around them?

You could tell someone your life story... and it's like they get what you are saying? I guess it's easier because it's a different perspective on your life... someone who knows nothing about you having a glance at who you are. Sooo weird how random friendships emerge with people who have never met.

Another random thought I have is on love.

Everyone wants it.... but it's a vicious cycle. Person A wants to be with Person B. Person B wants to be with Person C... and so on. No matter how you look at it, someone is always getting their heart broken. I'll never understand it but maybe thats the way it should be. If we all understood everything or had everything we wanted.. what would we be living for?

Another thought before I go has to do with being held back.

We say people hold us back or we don't want anyone holding us back.... but is it really someone else holding you back or yourself? Anyone can shift blame to others than onto themselves because it makes it easier on them. But if you really think someone is holding you back, I truley think it's all in your head. Everything is in your head.

I tell ya the mind can come up with some CRAZY thoughts. been there. done that. it sucks.

If people stopped letting their emotions control them and start controlling their emotions (Im not angel I do this too), then I really think people can see other's perspectives and we would all get along so much better.

First Post

Hmmm... haven't blogged since High School with the whole Xanga thing. So my mind is kind of blank as I start this.

I guess I'll start off with my weekend - which by the way was amazing! Pretty kick ass weekend before my big interview on Wednesday. { Wish me luck! }

Friday I ventured into Bmore for the O's game. I didn't stay too long... just long enough to meet some friends and drink. And after walking around drunk for about an hour, we go to Looneys and have even more fun.

Saturday I get up earlier than I wanted to for tubing in Harper's Ferry. That was a B-L-A-S-T. Went with some pretty kickass people so I was happy. Also got some battle wounds which always make for a better story. Afterwards I took a much need shower and saw Bruno. LOOOOOOVED the movie but you really see just how stupid people can be.

Sunday woke up early AGAIN for another O's game. Went to Hooters before to pre-game and we made our little way there. Had an awesome time wearing out my voice and my wallet haha. I'm glad I went with the people that I went with. I made V.I.P Status with them which is fine by me because I am -Pretty Awesome-.

Now I just sit here... pondering life and other things that are gonna drive me crazy.