Sunday, October 31, 2010


I'm going to San Fran this year if it exerts all of my energy.

Thursday, October 28, 2010


I find that I'm not doing what I said I would.
I find that I'm saying what I need to do.
I find that no matter what I do, something will always follow me.

I finish school in spring. High Five.

I need a change in all aspects of my life. Where to begin?

Tuesday, October 26, 2010


My Nephew is getting so big so fast. Today was certainly a surprise.

Cannot wait til he is old enough to run around and be a little terror. I already want to spoil him with trips...



My soul was at peace here.

Favorite picture of John.

Monday, October 25, 2010

I Agree

This is a wonderful version of Ave Maria.

Forgive me I do not know how to embed links into this yet.


It's 7:06 and I'm sick to my stomach. Nothing by which I ate... but the manners and actions of some people. I know in my right mind that I shouldn't let anything in that particular nature bother me but I'm not in my right mind.

I am also confused as to why my photo in the corner is so small. But I could spend hours trying to figure such a petty thing out.

I give my first speech in November, and I'm not that nervous about it. I knew what I was getting into when I joined so why should I be surprised or nervous that I have to give one?

Also looking into taking a different approach in November and from now on. I've said before that you should give back to the world if you can so that's just what I'll do.

Looking into venturing out now to get rid of this somber mood I have acquired. Or maybe not.

Meh, I'll never understand completely why I'm somewhat always this way when I am alone, perhaps I'll go purchase a book I have been waiting to read for some time... maybe I'll work on my speech, studying is always an option. Hot chocolate would be great right now. Man, I wish my room was just a tad bit bigger.

Anywho, I could random for hours. But I'll leave with this note.

"You're blessed with more than you know, even in your darkest days."

Sunday, October 24, 2010


That is it.

My top favorite composer has to be Schubert.

If you don't know, look it up.

"Serenade", "Ave Maria"

and there's one more that escapes me at the moment.

Friday, October 22, 2010

This is the End

But I know a place where we can go
That's still untouched by man
We'll sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
You can lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end

I did not write this.

Those lyrics stuck out.


Please answer me one question.

Why would you ever put a plant that needs the elements, away from the very things it needs to grow?

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Renn. Fest 2010

I ventured to Renn. Fest with a couple of friends. Haven't been in years and man was it a grand day!


So my good friends Heather & Ji got married with a lovely reception and a splendid reception. I accidentally deleted the pictures I took at the reception. It happens.


Wednesday, October 13, 2010

What A Lovely Day For A Wednesday

I've been noticing a lot of things influence me... well at least bring to the surface things about myself that I have seem to forgotten.

I nearly have forgotten what I wanted to write about. In fact I did.

Oh silly me.

I need to stop following such blogs I never take an interest in reading. I only enjoy really about 2 of the people I follow (Mandy you're one of them!) Isn't it amazing that you look forward to what certain people have to say?

Ah! I remember now.

Yesterday I was asked why I am a vegetarian/transitioning-vegan... I responded with just one reason to not cause a full on debate. "I researched it."

I was then followed with "Why would I put myself through that?"

Usually I would brush it off, but this response took me back... I thought about it... "Why would I?" It pestered me a little because why wouldn't you take the time to learn what going on in the world around you?

I would rather look absolutely insane in some people's eyes then to not have any opinion about any matter of substance and just be well a full-fledged idiot. Somewhat harsh but it's the truth.

I would rather stand for something (or a few things) and do my part to make some kind of difference in this world than go on day by day doing the same damn thing until the day I die.

I strongly strongly believe in "Be the change you wish to see in the world".

Gandhi was an incredible man. Instead of holding office, he took the time to give back to the people and in turn grew a huge following and support FROM the people and brought a nation to its knees. At least that's what I read.

What is the point of having if you do not give? I always do my best to give whenever possible... donating $$, food, what have you. I don't do it to brag or look like a saint... (most of the time no one knows when I donate or do anything of that nature unless they see me or are with me when I do it), I do it because I just do. [Yes I said "do" alot te he he]

Everyone's actions should be towards making the world a better place to live. Awkward sentence I know... deal. =)


I got advised yesterday to keep track of the remaining classes I need to take and great news... it's less than I thought. Also got info about starting my chem. degree if I decide to start again at HCC.

I am super excited. I can see the finish line and I will do whatever it takes to make this happen. Even if that makes disappearing from now and the end of spring semester.

Until I feel the urge to write again!


Friday, October 8, 2010

Pour Acid into Water?

I'll be honest. Last time I touched anything related to chemistry was about 7th or 8th grade. Yup it has been that long.

So I've been researching and researching what I have to get into the field of study I'm most interested in... which is spectroscopy.

Low & behold it's chemistry. Yup.... as I gazed upon the classes needed, I said to myself... &^&%%. Not that it is hard (challenging yes), but I have never seen those before in a classroom.

After asking a friend who is in the same program that I would like to be apart of, I knew it was a good decision. I know the school I want to attend (the same one I wanted to go to since 10th grade), I know the tuition rates (saving $$ is oh so important to me right now), I have a checklist of how to apply.... the only issue.

The SAT. Now nothing fills me up with anger more than a certain situation that I won't get into than this. I did not take the SAT in high school. When I was younger I did twice (smarty pants), but because I was going into community college (and my blood is boiling at this moment) I didn't need them.

Cheers to letting someone limit what you capable of (even if you don't see it then). =/

Now I'm paying for that mistake today.

But for most of my life I wanted to be a scientist (I have to thank Mr. Brown my science teacher for that) and well I've wandered off from that far too long.

The winner says, 'It may be difficult, but it's possible.'
The loser says, 'It may be possible, but it's too difficult.'

Monday, October 4, 2010


This is what happens when you slack off in high school and limit yourself in college.

Stressed to say the least.

& the people that usually inspire me aren't helping... they are more of a tease.

So must rely on oneself

Change of plans is in order.....